 | A Princess and will always be..(",) | Mar 22, 2006 |
Enjoy browsing through my stuff, and the tidbits of memories that completes me.;) "Well, what am i supposed to think?
He's like the king of mixed signals.
One day he can't stand me, the next day he can't get enough of me.
I just want someone who won't care that i never wear the perfect outfit.
That i'm incapable of staying,
still i can't grasp the concept of this and that
and that i refuse to be lady-like.
Someone who realizes that half the decision i make I'll regret,
and that i have the tendency to over react at any given moment.
I want someone who knows I'm completely insane
but he still wouldn't want me any other way."http://camsprats.multiply.com  My bestfriend Kate sent this message to me.. right timing because of all the rumors being said and written about me.. here's all i can say:
"In this lifetime,
you cannot avoid GOSSIPS and UNKIND WORDS from other people.
I mean, whatever you do.
You will never be able to please everybody.
It is a universal precept and you cannot dodge it.
So quit trying.
Enjoy your life and let them be.
But remember:
Don't resent the fact that people keep checking on you,
besides, if YOU weren't WORTH anything...
they wouldn't BOTHER.."
love it!!
to all who are saying completely false things about me..
here's all i can say..:)
as long as i know i am not doing any harm to anyone,
i'm good.. and happy.:)
no one can ever take that away from me..:)
 | | Grabe!! record breaking na to!!!
we have been hanging out together
more than thrice a week!!!
i soo love it!!!
we went shopping..:)
Zara for more than an hour..:)
picture card.. ugh..
unbelievable!!!
30 friggin' minutes to get our pics printed!!!
ang daming retakes!!!
oliver's sandiwiches..
Ginj and i were starving!!!
starbucks to get kate's planner..:)
then powerstation..
"its like rain, on your wedding day!!!
its a free ride,, when you're already paid...
isn't it ironic..."
hehehe.. videoke nonstop.:)
love you besses!!!! |
 | I am... | Nov 9, '06 12:22 PM
for everyone |
 In Repair
Too many shadows in my room
too many hours in this midnight
too many corners in my mind
so much to do to set my heart right
Oh its taking so long
i could be wrong
i could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume, it's still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
Stood on the corner for awhile
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hope that it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh its taking so long
i could be wrong
i could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume, it's still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
Ohhhh
Now i'm walking in the park
all of the birds they dance below me
maybe when things turn green again
it will be good to say you know me
Oh its taking so long
i could be wrong
i could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume, it's still unready
never really ready
I'm never really ready
I'm in repair
Im not together
but im getting there
I'm in repair
Im not together
but im getting there..
 Grey's Anatomy.. Season 3
Life is beautiful,INSPITE and DESPITE and what not..
good or bad, heaven or hell..
what matters is what we become AFTER...
right? agree?
perfect..:)
this song is somewhere up there..
here on my home page..
if you guys wanna listen..
i soo love it..:)
**
life is beautiful
we live until we die
when you run into my arms
we steal a perfect moment
Let the monsters see you smile
let them see you smile
and do i hold you too tightly
when will the hurt kick in
life is beautiful
but it's complicated
we barely make it
we don't need to understand
THERE ARE MIRACLES
MIRACLES
your life is beautiful
our hearts they beat and break
when you run away from harm
will you run back into my arms
like you did when you were young
will you come back to me
and i will hold you tightly
when the hurting kicks in
life is beautiful
but it's complicated
we barely make it
we don't need to understand
THERE ARE MIRACLES
MIRACLES
stand where you are
we let all these moments pass us by
it's amazing where i'm standing
there's a lot left we can give
this is ours just for a moment
there's a lot left we can give
| How? | Nov 7, '06 5:09 AM
for everyone |
 How do you say NO to something that feels so good?
to somethng that makes you feel happy?
How do you say no to chocolates?
icecream?
and all that stuff that gives you a wonderful feeling?
that makes you feel in total bliss?
You make a choice.
No matter how hard it is, you make a choice whether to go with it or not.
It's gonna hurt. For sure.
It'll hurt to turn your back away from all these.
But that is where everything leads to.
Its just a matter of "who" or "what" will hurt you.
And if its worth the pain.
Love life.
Love the pain.
Makes me feel so alive in a way..  Bill Parrish: Do you love Drew?
Do you love Drew?
Susan: You mean like you loved mom?
Bill: forget about me and mom. Are you gonna marry him?
Susan: I'm probably...
Bill: Listen, I'm crazy about the guy. He's smart. He's aggressive. He could carry Parrish Communications into the 21st century and me along with it.
Susan: Mm-hmm. So what's wrong with that?
Bill: That's for me, I'm talking about you. It's not what you say about Drew its what you don't say.
Susan: Maybe you're not listening.
Bill: Oh yes i am. There's not an ounce of excitement, not a...whisper of a thrill. And this relationship has all the passion of a pair of titmice.
I want you to get swept away out there. I want you to levitate...I want you to sing with rapture and dance like a dervish.
Susan: Oh that's all?
Bill: yeah. be deliriously happy, or atleast leave yourself open to be.
Susan: okay. "be deliriously happy" i shall, uh-- i shall do my utmost.
Bill:
i know its a cornball thing, but love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. I say, fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back. How do you find him? well, forget your head, and listen to your heart.
And i'm not hearing any heart...
Cause the truth is honey, there's no sense in living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply inlove, well, you haven't lived a life at all. But you have to try, cause if you haven't tried.. you haven't lived.
Susan: Bravo!
Bill: oh you're tough.
Susan: I'm sorry. Okay. Give it to me again. But the short version this time.
Billl: Okay. Stay open. Who knows? LIGHTNING COULD STRIKE..***** Super love this scene!!! i hope i find someone like him!!! love it!!!:):):)*****
At the coffeeshop.. first meeting.;)
Joe: Morning
Susan: Good morning.
Joe:(sighs) I was talking kinda loud there. I'm sorry.
Susan: Oh, Not at all. It was fascinating.
Joe: Yeah? what's fascinating about it?
Susan: you and uhm--"honey"?
Joe: Its my kid sister.
Susan: oh.
Joe: She just broke up with her boyfriend and was thingking of dropping out of law school.
Susan: oh i'm sorry.
Joe: No. Nothing to be sorry about. That's the way it is with men and women isn't it?
Susan: what's the way?
Joe: Nothing lasts.
Susan: Oh yeah, i agree.
Joe: Really why?... No i'm interested..
Susan: I was just trying to be agreeable.
Joe: oh.. ok. alright. i was sharpshooting.
Susan: oh..
Joe: No just that "nothing lasts" stuff. That was the problem with honey's guy. he didn't know what he wanted so he's fooling around and she catches him at it. you know like one girlfriend isn't enough for her.
Susan: So.. you're a one-girl guy?
Joe: Yes, iam.
susan smiles
Joe: thats riight.
Susan: right.
Joe: Looking for her right now actually.. Mm.. who knows? you might be her.
No don't laugh. I just got into town I got a new job. I'm trying to get this apartment.
Anyway, so you're a doctor.
Susan: hmm.. how'd you know?
Joe: Cause everyone's a doctor around here. what kind of doctor are you?
Susan: uhm, I'm a resident. Internal medicine.
Joe: so if i needed a doctor you could be it.
Susan: I could be her. yeah.
Joe: You could be... her.
Susan: Uh-huh. yeah, i could... I'm..I'm working at the hospital so...
Joe: I see. this is my lucky day. i just get in the big bad city, not only do i find a doctor but a beautiful woman as well... do you mind me saying that?
Susan: oh-- no. of course. No its fine.. its fine.. its just---
Joe: listen, could i buy you a cup of coffee?
Susan: uhm, i have some patients coming in, so i should probably..get goin'..
Joe: yeah yeah.. i gotta get to the apartment.i gotta get off to work..
but i'd still like to have another cup of coffee...
Susan: uhm..
Joe: would you let me do that?
Susan: well yeah.. ok.
Joe. Deal.
****
Joe: my job is kind of a pro bono thing
Susan: Pro "bono" you mean doing good?
Joe: thats me.
Susan: gonna be doing good all your life?
Joe: i know what you're saying. its doesn't pay so well but i like it.
Susan: mm-hmm.
Joe: Eventually it depends on the woman i'll marry, i think. Maybe she'll want lots of kids, a bigger house. Better car, uh-- college doesn't come cheap. you know?-- i dont know..
Susan: wow. give up what you want for the woman you'll marry.
Joe: Yeahm you know what? i would..
Susan: yeah?
Joe: gladly. cause you make your choices you know? Say you and i, if we were married.. i would-- no, for an example ok? if you and i were married i would want to give you what you need. that's all, im talking about taking care of each other the best you can. what's wrong with taking care of a woman? she takes care of you.
Susan: you'll have a hard time finding a woman like that these days.
Joe: shoot, you think so?
Susan: MM-hmm.
Joe: i don't know. LIGHTNING COULD STRIKE.
susan stops..
Susan: I've gotta go..
Joe: yeah,, listen did i say something wrong? no?
Susan: no.no. no.. it was.. it was so right it scares me.. that's all.
Joe: ok.. you know i as thinking..i dont want you to be my doctor... I dont want you to examine me and...
Susan: why?
Joe: because i like you so much..
Susan: And i--i dont wanna examine you.
Joe: you dont? why not?
Susan: because i like you so much.
(both laughing)
Susan: oh boy.. ok.. now i gotta go.
Joe: all right all right. fair enough..
Susan: bye.
Joe: bye.:)  Got this from bessie's site.
Aaaw...i hate the fact that EVERYTHING WRITTEN HERE IS TRUE!!!
why does it hurt?
why is it confusing and frustrating?
and at the same time, why does it feel so good.
the pain.
painfully sweet fact:
truth is..
everyone's just gonna hurt you.
you just have to decide
who's worth the pain.
***
i like DEAD END signs..
i think they're kind.
they at least have the decency
to let you know you're going nowhere.
***
you know you really love someone...
when you dont hate them for breaking your heart.
***
you dont ever stop loving someone.
it's more a matter of dealing with the pain of not having them anymore.
***
you choose that someone you want to be with.
love is a choice.
and when you choose..make sure you dont JUST want it...you've got to want it BAD.
and if you do want it THAT bad..you wont let anything stand in your way.
 Can't get myself to stop listening to this song...
Maybe because it EXACTLY explains how I feel,
which i cannot really explain or figure out..
Sucks when things doesn't turn out the way you want them to,
just no matter how hard you try,
if its not to meant to be, it will never be.
I have always been scared..
making choices for myself...
when i thought i've made the right one.
it always turns out to be wrong.
Being caught unaware..
blinded by the fact that it still can be right...
that i just have to keep on trying...
pero hindi talaga eh.
Now, i'm letting my guards down.
I am going with the flow.
Wherever life me.
I know He's with me
I've got nothing to fear.:)
FIX YOU
Coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from all of my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you. Meredith!
Leave me alone!
Meredith!
just leave me alone.
Just wanted to make sure you're all right.
No, I'm not allright. okay? are you satisfied? i'm NOT allright. because you have a wife, and you call me a whore, and our dog died. and now you're looking at me. STOP looking at me.
i'm not looking at you. i'm NOT looking at you.
you are looking at me. and you watch me. and Finn has plans. i like Finn. he's perfect for me, and im really trying here, to be happy. and i can't breathe. i can't breathe with you looking at me like that so just stop!
do you think i wanna look at you? that i wouldn't rather be looking at my wife? I'm married, I have responsibilities. She--she doesnt drive me crazy. She doesn't make it impossible for me to feel normal. She doesn't make me sick to my stomach thinking about my veterinarian touching her with his hands. I would give anything not to be looking at you.
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For 5 years, I had to live by the choice of my doctors. The guys that cut me open, decide on my life, there wasn't one choice that was mine. And now, i have this heart that beats, that works, I get to be like everybody else. I get to make my own decisions, have my own life, do whatever the damn hell i choose.
Now here's the good part, so you listen close. What i choose, is you. You are who i wanna wake up with, go to bed with, and do everything in between with. i get a choice now, I get to choose.
i choose you..
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Iz...that's not denny
Shut up.
That's not denny. The minute his heart stopped beating he stopped being denny. Now i know you love him, but he also loved you. A guy that loves you like that he wouldnt want you to do this to yourself, because thats not denny. not anymore.
an hour ago, he was proposing. and now, he's going to the morgue. isn't that ridiculous? isn't that the most ridiculous crap you've ever heard?..
  | | This party's for everyone who supperted John during his stay in the PBB house.:) to those who came...
BIG THANKS FROM MY BIG BROTHER!!!!:) |
This is my color and what it means. try it..:) its so true.;p
web.tickle.com/color/
Red
Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses.
Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love.
So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously.
If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name.
You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in.
Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions.
In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied.
Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind.
That's why some reds have trouble with commitment.
Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results.
Overall, though, it's great to be red.
No one lives life more completely than you do.
 | Category: | Books | | Genre: | Nonfiction | | Author: | Sophie Kinsella |
To all shopaholics.. Grab this book!!
Galing!! Very witty and funny. Never thought i would laugh my ass off over a book.
Piece of advice: Read it at home or when alone. You wouldn't want people staring at you in a weird way coz you're laughing alone right?:)
Really nice.. Not too shallow not too deep. Just right to make our day tolerable and sweet
*Shopaholic Takes Manhattan
*Shopaholic Ties the Knot
*Shopaholic And Sister.
 | japan!!! | Mar 24, '06 11:37 PM
for everyone |
i super miss my brother!!!:( though i'm glad he made it to the big 4..one week to go and i'll see him na.:) I am very proud of him. For being how he is to other people. Not uttering a single word that would hurt anyone.. Never thought he can be that sensitive.. he used to be the most insensitive guy i know on earth!! hehe.. Bait my kuya.. he deserves someone as kind,sincere and simple as he is. :) I love you kuya!!!! can't imagine life without you.:)    missed them so much.. finally we got the chance to hang out and talk. Picked up kate in eastwood (sorry bes,,kept you waiting..;)) then went to pearl drive to meet ginger who came from school. Ate at pancake house, ginger and i were starving..she got spaghetti and i got choco marble.:) Kate looked quite disturbed, pretty much quiet the whole time. Bought something in Ice Monster (they were selling clothes buy 1 take 1;)) ginger got the free one and is paying me for it..( bes for the NTH time!!! its TAKE!!! its FREE!!) hehe.. kukulit my bessies.. So back to business.. Kate told us something that i was sort of expecting, uhm let's say something that crossed my mind, a hint that its probably about that but brushed it off right away hoping its not.Ginger was entirely clueless. But then I was right. When she finally said it, i was in a state of shock for 5 seconds and slapped back to reality. But then back to the issue at hand, what she feels is more important than what we think.. So we dealt with that later on.. Typical Ginger kept blabbing that she's totally not for it (while eating her spag as if there's no tomorrow;) love you!).. i understand.. i felt torn.. its like i understand, i have to because she's my bestfriend and i have to understand everything about her. But i am, like ginj, not for it. For more than half of our lives of being bestfriends. I can't believe that we, one of us is going through this, and when we talked about it, its like we three are in that situation, feel what she feels. I hate it when one of them gets hurt. Because i know them too damn well and i know that they don't deserve that. Ginj has been through alot, me as well. Kate's our baby, she's our baby that we don't ever want her to get hurt. Not by some stupid, immature, selfish person who is totally NOT WORTHY of her time and love. ( oh i will kill you when i see you!! AND MAKE SURE YOU READ THIS!!!!!) Oh bes,, if only i can ease out your burden by taking even half of it... i love you. ginj and i will always be here for you. Ever. Always. I realized how incomplete i would be if i didnt have these 2 weirdos in my life.. hay, i super thank God for giving you guys to me.. Never been lucky..;) *after kate's confession, i wasn't able to concentrate on eating my choco marble. Ginj kept going with her spag plus side comments, then ate my choco marble afterwards, when she was full that's when we got her complete attention and was going hysterical 10 minutes after the confession.. Iba ka talaga bes!!! super late reaction..hehe!! we understand,, you were starving..classic..;) As childish as we all get,,, It doesn't matter as long as we have fun together. Just like nobody else exist but us. ;) I love you both. Super. I'd do anything for you guys.. you both know that.:)
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